half-hearted

I was quite thrilled that I have indirectly secured an interview.

I thought retirement was way too early and it was a waste of experience and skills. For a while (half a day?), I was quite pleased with myself.

As far as it seemed now, nothing is going to materialise. My efforts down the drain! Breathe.

I don't wish to get upset over small matters - disinterest in job, escalating phone bills with zero effort to contain cost. I am losing my sanity.