a tiny step

After many nights of endless sleep and thinking through the many years which had passed (not consecutive nights, of course), the psychoanalysis was done. I personally think its quite sad when people have to psychoanalyse themselves. Instinctively, I thought something must have went so wrong for this person.

In order to move forward, its good to take a glimpse at the actions and happenings and rationalise certain behaviours. I heaved deep sighs of relief and felt loads off my chest after I finally come in face with my inner (subconscious) thoughts and feelings.

This should be part of growing old up. When one finally finds the courage and strength to face certain issues and talk about past insecurities with the one who caused it (in the past). Perhaps, talking about it to ST first helped put my thoughts/feelings into words (and the brief mention to HS via MSN as well).

I feel wiser.